This year has been a very trying year. A lot has happened this year. I have had some definate roller coaster rides. I am at the point in my life and enough has happened this year that I really need to take time to reflect on where I am and where I want my life to go. I am putting my life back in God's hands instead of my own hands. I tend to put my trust in God but when He takes too long, I get impatient and I take my problems back and attempt to take care of them my way. That so doesn't work. It hasn't worked and time for a change.
I am also at a point of reflecting on my marriage. I have a wonderful husband who takes care of all our bills and attempts to take care of whatever needs/wants are in the house. We fall short financially a lot but it's not from lack of trying. My husband is very attentive and caring and some days I wonder how I was blessed enough to have him as my own. Some days I don't feel like I should be able to deserve this great man that I have. I am working on finding as many ways as I can and the most creative ways to let my husband know how much I love and appreciate him. I know I sure don't tell him enough or show it enough.
Another area of reflection, I know...I told you I've been reflecting on all my life..lol. My weight, it's something that has not been a priority in my life and it's something that I need to change. I will post (probably not daily) but my walk with weight loss. I was diagnosised with Type 2 Sugar Diabetes May 4, 2010. That day changed my life. I was scared, upset, worried and terrified that I had just been given a death sentence. Well, after lots of research, diabetes can be a death sentence if not taken care of. I was a pop drinker (not said correctly here in the south since it would be a coke but my being from Idaho it's still a pop..lol) that had to have a pop to wake up with and then drink throughout the day. We're not talking diet or anything reduced, we're talking about a full fledged caffiene and sugar loaded pop. Mountain Dew was my get me going coffee of choice. Since being diagnosised with diabetes, I have not had anything but water, diet pops and if I do drink sweet tea here I order half and half (half sweet and half unsweet). In that time and just watching what I eat..not making major changes but being more conscious of the sugars in my diet and cutting out the sugary drinks I have lost 15 pounds to date. I have about 100 more pounds to go to feel and look good in my skin again. I don't want to have any hangy, saggy skin as I lose. I want to be able to tone up and look great in my older, skinnier body.
I am not so great at blogging but I guess since it's my blog and my thoughts it really doesn't matter!! Will blog more later.
